I was always so exhausted and unmotivated from my hangovers the simplest tasks seemed like my legs weighed a thousand pounds and the dread of doing the not imminent chores or tasks got thrown to the wayside. Which of course just added up to the longest “didn’t do” list ever. Which made me anxious and irritable, nothing is worse than the simplest things piling up.
Now I can be a procrastinator, I get this and accept it about myself. Though tonight I noticed something, at 630PM when I was running out the door to buy stamps for a card that needed to go in the mail tonight…. what I noticed was, I did it and joyfully. The Side Effect of my Sobriety is Getting Shit Done. It’s a Sunday night usually I was so hungover and feeling down about myself and my wasted weekend I would not have just popped out, the door or I worse I was drinking again.
Months back I was exhausted and scared, I went to bed early, I had rocky sleeps, I was looking for stuff to do that didn’t involve drinking, anything to do, but I wasn’t getting shit done. I was hiding a bit. I would venture to things like yoga or coffee, or shopping. Fridays were scary, Sundays were scary and every day in between was scary. Looking back I’m ok with being scared, hiding from the world, and exploring the world in safe places.
It seems like I have woken up and I’m Getting Shit Done. Those little tasks don’t seem as tiring, I still have a didn’t do list but my to do list also has a lot crossed off. I’m sleeping really well and not going to sleep as early, and waking up refreshed. It’s like there’s been a reset button pushed and I’m GSD’ing.
Now off to write my gym workout and layout my gym clothes! Who is this woman!!!
Happy Sober Day Christina